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We're still waiting on the results. And with every minute that goes by, I feel like I become less and less emotionally stable.

We had a good 48 hours after she started the formula-- she smiled quite a bit and was content, and her stools returned to a more normal consistency (I still can't believe I am blogging about THAT). But yesterday things turned. She cried all day, and the mucus returned and we think there was some blood. This morning she has cried out in pain a couple different times-- each was followed by a bowel movement-- one green, and one with mucus.

I'm not sure how long I can keep up with the schedule we are on. Since I am pumping to keep up my supply, there isn't much time in the day that isn't either taken up by feeding her, rocking her, or pumping. We get through it all once, and it's time to start all over again. So besides being emotionally unstable, physically I am barely able to move.

I've had some more words with God this morning. I know He hears, but sometimes it just doesn't feel like it.